On January 4th, I found out news that would change my life forever. That I was growing a little baby inside my belly! I cried happy tears for about 20 minutes, after the initial shock wore off, then I (took two more pregnancy tests lol) and called my husband at work. I was in disbelief not just then, but for weeks after. I went to my first doctors appointment and it still didn’t seem real, not until I heard the babies heartbeat. Tears started streaming down my face and all I could think was “I’m going to be a Mom”. Me, a Mom. What a blessing. As weeks went on, I felt so overwhelmed with joy and happiness that sometimes I could’t even sleep. I tossed and turned all night thinking about our baby. I had vivid dreams that I was singing lullabies in a nursery outfitted with little blue elephants or pretty pink stuffed animals. I found myself crying tears of joy in the middle of the day. As the weeks went on, I started to feel like I wasn’t alone anymore when I was working away in my office. I felt like my sweet baby was there with me. I would talk to baby even when it was just a little kidney bean. Now, at 21 weeks pregnant, as I sit here typing, and feel gentle kicks, I’m finally ready to share the news and excitement with all of you.
There are so few moments of pure bliss that we get to indulge in in this lifetime, I just had to be selfish and soak it up as long as possible. I also wanted my little bean to grow a little, to make sure that it was enjoying this cozy space inside my body. As a first time Mom, I didn’t know when the right time to “announce” my pregnancy was, but for weeks I knew that I wasn’t ready. Today, with baby the size of a banana, I want to shout it from the rooftops. I’m going to be a Mom! I’ve never felt more blessed, or grateful to my body for carrying me through it all. Or to my husband for giving me the most beautiful gift of a lifetime.
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